Our Lives As A Story

I know we have all had the times where life seems to pile things onto an already heavy load. The times where our legs seem so tired that we are about to fall face first into the dirt. Well when you are at these trying times, ask yourself what is it all for, why are you doing this?


For me it's my faith... the faith that my dreams are about to come true. The faith that a life lasting love is in my future. How can it seem like the wicked go unpunished while the good are tried and tried again? We all have our demons that we battle, some of us battle more often than others. So whether it be faith, the lord, or a loved one, we all must find our strength and keep it close to our hearts. For it will be this strength that gets you through these battles. Because life is anything but fair, and often times it can be downright mean. But when you are in that darkness, there is light even though it cannot be seen.


There is a purpose to life like a moral to the childrens book of life. Although we cannot read these pages or skip to the end to see what happens, as characters in this book of life we can continue to move foward. We can continue to brush ourselves off, find our strength in times of need, and march through those pages toward our moral in life. For each of our own stories are being read at this very moment, our pages are being turned, as we move through the experiences of our book to a moral in our own personal story. Granted that some of us are in the chapters of heartbreak and loneliness, while others are in the chapters of love and happiness, we all are on a journey.


But if you fail to brush yourself off while face first in that dirt, if you take that deep breath in defeat, our story is not a story at all... but merely ideas that never made it to the library of life!

Has This Happened To You

Have you ever woken up one day and were just totally caught off guard by how or where you are in your life? Like it's all a dream and at any minute you are going to snap out of it and everything in life will be right again! If only life were that easy.


The reality of it all is that the only way to make life right is by doing it yourself. By going after the things that you want the most. That might mean that you will look like a fumbling idiot along the way, maybe even a jackass at times, and people will probably laugh at you. Well you know what I say, let them laugh! Because a person with passion goes after the things that they want without hesitation and without fear of how they are perceived from others. And out of all the traits that a person can possess, I would have to say that passion is amongst the top. The passion for life, the passion for love, and the passion for obtaining happiness.


I would hope that we can all have that passion and bravery in our lives; the bravery to break way those chains and pursue those pleasures in life that we seek. But with every yin there is a yang, and with that bravery will come fear. Which is only natural to fear when you have the risk of losing. But the happiness in life that we seek is worth the risk and the love that we yearn for.


Those tears on our cheek will dry up, the aching heart in our chest will heal, and the empty arms of our soul will hold another! So chin up, and put a smile on...

life will get better! :-)

Looking at the Reflection in the Mirror

Looking at the reflection in the mirror, I ponder for a moment. Remembering times when life was far more complex and much less difficult. Wondering if I will gain control of who I am, what I stand for and my future?


My happiness depends on myself and myself only. I feel as though I have an idea of what that might compel. However I have not the slightest idea of what it will take to really get there. Things can seem so out of reach sometimes. I'm just trying day by day to get a little further, jumping hurdles and working my way through the obstacles that are laid out in front of me. I seem to be getting very good at dodging what life is throwing at me though.


As I continue to stare at my reflection, I notice something. I'm jaded, it is written all over my face and there is no denying that I have neglected myself. Taking all the time in the world to please everyone around me, I have simply pushed myself to the side and left no time to tend to me. I seem to be spinning in circles trying to make sense of what is twirling around me. It is all moving too fast, I find it hard to grasp on to anything when it is flying by me at the speed of light. The reflection staring back at me is clearly trying to tell me something. It is just a matter of figuring it all out.


Life seems much more complicated these days, far more than it ever has before. I find myself second guessing who I really am and what it is I want out of my life. But I am surely working on it. And as I stare deeper into the face looking back at me, I realize I am a lot stronger than I put off. And with that strength I will make it through anything. I know what my boundaries are and I carry my values and self-respect with me no matter where I go. I have grown to be independent and strong willed.


I just have to let go of my insecurities and fears to allow myself to become who I want to be.