Nowadays, I am not entirely sure anymore of the things that are happening in my life...
At this point, I am beginning to question the things I have, the decisions i'm making and the people around me..
When exactly do people realize that their lives are turning out the way they wanted it to be? Some say that there will be a turning point and it will present itself to you at a very opportune time.
But when can you exactly find out if what's happening is indeed your turning point in life? Long has it been a terrible conundrum for me.. Long have I waited to figure out the way to help myself be aware..
When exactly do people realize that they are happy?
Is it when they can manouver a smile and carry on with the day?
Is it when everything is going fine and you enjoy every ounce of time you have left?
Is it when the people around you is happy and you hear no bad things about yourself?
When exactly can you say that you are on the right path?
I personally believe that Life, in it's truest sense, is neither meant to be understood nor analyzed. It is way too grand and complicated to just be throroughly solved by meager minds.
Now, if i will be asked if I am truly in control of my life, I would plainly answer 'no'.
It may sound totally anti-climactic, but i guess that's how it is. You live your life in such a way that it will never be predicatable. You can be as controlling as you can or be as certain with all your decisions; However, there would be things that are bound to get out of hand. All that you can do is be prepared for everything and make the right choices. Consider not only yourself but also the people around you, no matter how distant or close they are to you. I may not fully appreciate the complex plan laid out for me.. One thing's for sure, though.. I know that everything will definitely fall into place. With every right thing that i did, it made me wiser.And with every mistake i committed, it made me stronger.
